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I've been doing some thinking. About everything in general, basically.
Sometimes it feels like deafness is a cage. Its a bit like being in prison. When you're in, you're limited in what you can do, but when you're out, the prisoner status hangs over you. There's no escaping.
Deaf world = prison.
Sometimes I'm pissed that I was born deaf and lost opporuntines that I would had if I was born hearing. Its like why am I deaf? Yeah, I could learn how to speak and read lips but my deaf status still will hang over me. I'll never feel like I quite fit in because I'm deaf. Its like blacks "passing" to be white. You look and act like one, but you know you're not one. Fuck you, deaf world prison. I'm fed up with this.
But one thing that I'm really happy about is that I'm not a 7829087653th gen deafie. I like being a first gen deafie. People like me for who I am, not who my family is. It scares me how some people worship deafies who come from a famous family. I've seen some people just devote their entire attention to just a few people in a group and ignore the rest because they're 567th gen deafies and the rest are like 1st or 2nd gen. I've also seen people label entire grades as lame because there isn't a bunch of kids from the elite deaf families. Get to know them before you label them, idiots. We are human beings. We exist also. We're not inferior to you. So stop treating us as if we were, fucktards. Would you treat a black person or a woman (if you were white or a guy) the same way the first gen deafies are treated? Hell no. Stop being such a closeminded racist idiot.
Elitism isn't a good thing. Get to know them first before you judge/label. Maybe you were worshipping the black sheep of an elite 456789039872th gen deafie family who elopes with a hearing person and didn't go to Gally. And you never knew because you were too busy being a little pathetic suck-up. Wasted your time, eh? Oh look! That first gen deafie you ignored is the president of NAD! Oh! HOW DID YOU OVERLOOK HIM? Its too late to change your brown-nosing antics, the first gen deafie already knows you're an idiot.
This is mainly directed to deaf adults in general (sucking up to 43255th gen deafies). Deaf kids treat each other equally. But adults play favorites with the elite deafies. Why?
I'd love to punch the next person I see sucking up to 456765th gen deafies and ignoring the first gen deafies. Ignore this punch, eh?
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and in color and good quality! CHECK THEM OUT >:D
Have pics of the kindergarten class inculding renca, 2nd grade, nutcracker (kindergarten snowflakes and preschool carolers.. so cuteeeeeeee!), random b-day parties, me, laura, hedder, bro, and more =D
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Heather, me, and Laura at the CEID graduation =D Aren't we so cute?
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Deaf Pride-
What the fuck about that makes deaf people shun hearing people!? I've seen some people brag about their deafness and family "5th gen deafie!" "entire family deaf!!". Does that make them think they're better than first gen deafies? I'm a first generation deafie, and my ENTIRE family is hearing, so does that make me less deaf than you? Am I beneath your l33t deaf status? I SO HATE THAT! Don't even get me started on CODA.. Elitism :-/ "I'm CODA!! I ROCK!! HEARING PEOPLE SUXXX!" Hey- I'm as deaf as you, possibly even deafer.. And hearing people are cool, don't hate em. Hearing people made you, even if you're like 8353854783486425th gen deafie, there has to be some hearing people in your family tree. I don't care if you cry and whine that hearing people suck cuz they "hate deafies". They don't. So stop the reserve discrimation, fucktard.
My mom is hearing, and her signing is really good that some even thought she was deaf. But when she tried going to deaf events when I was younger, she was shunned by the deaf parents because she was HEARING. What the fuck? She just wanted to socialize with the deafies and use her ASL skills, but they shunned her so she had to hang around with the hearing parents who barely could or couldn't sign. She doesn't deserve that. In fact, my doctor suggested that I get a cochlear ear implant when I was born but she said no. SHE DOES NOT HATE DEAF PEOPLE, IN FACT SHE LIKES THE CULTURE AND WANTS TO LEARN MORE.
I bet they'll freak out if their child is hearing. Heck, I WOULD LOVE HAVING A HEARING CHILD!! I'd make him/her order for me, make phone calls, and lots other stuff *g*. "OMG BUT YOUR KID IS HEARING!" So what? A child is a child, how is having a hearing child considered "inferior" to a deaf child? I'd love any of my kids, hearing, deaf, or hard of hearing equally since they're MINE and they all came out of my womb. I went through labor for my kids, why should I hate one of them since they're not like I am?
No wonder why I'm all apatheic about deaf pride. I'm just deaf, why should I celebrate it or care about how deaf others are? Screw those closeminded fuckers. This isn't 1950's with the racism.
Gally-
What's up with the "only deaf school!" thing? What's wrong with a hearing college? They're SO MUCH BETTER ACADEMICALLY than Gally! Don't give me shit about how deafies can't get into hearing schools because they're not smart like hearing people are. I got a fucking 99 and high 90's in English sections on the STAR test. I got that because I actually work to be smart, not just slack off because "I'm deaf and we all suck at English". Heck, on Job Shadow Day I was stuck with Farrah and some bitchy girl who totally ignored Farrah intrepeting and guess what she said when Farrah asked her to tell her something that she learned from the job shadow day? "I'm deaf" That got Farrah in a tizzy and she yelled at her since she intrepted the FUCKING whole thing and that girl decided to ignore her and act like a dumbass. Deaf people are smart too, so why do we slack off and use deafness as an excuse? Deafness doesn't affect our brains, only ears. There's nothing wrong with our brains thank you very much. I'm just sick of all those people who I know can succeed academically but claim that they're deaf so they're dumb and slack off. FUCKTARDS. That kind of reasoning is exactly why Gally is very very weak academically and deaf people don't really excel on tests.
Guess I'll stop now and x-post this to somewhere.. I could go on forever about this..
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Aug. 9th, 2003 @ 09:19 pm
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Some nifty stuff, lj-cut them but they're pretty nifty and one explains my past life (I'm a warlord!!!!!)
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I really like her =)
Base by Aoi Island
Isn't she yummy?
And the hair took me forever /faints |
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PAST:
First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Merchant
Last word you said: k, I'll grab the sheets from the dryer
Last song you sang: meow =p
Last song stuck in your head: never get songs stuck in my head, only whose line hoedowns
PRESENT:
What's in your CD player: nothing
What color socks are you wearing: white
What's under your bed: clothes and old toys at home, books and flannel blanket at school
What's the weather like: sunny
What time did you wake up today: no idea
FUTURE:
Who do you want to marry: someone hot ^_^
Are you going to college: yes
Where do you want to go: New Zealand
What is your career going to be: Photoshop goddess
Where are you going to live: Whatever life takes me to
How many kids do you want: depends ^_^
Kids' names: Katherina for sure, others I dunno
Where do you want your honeymoon: New Zealand so we can ski during the summer
What kind of car will you have: something cute =p
Liked this survey, don't normally do them much tho
Jul. 27th, 2003 @ 02:10 pm
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base by 2 Pixel
She was inspired by the gay pride parade.. She was too cute to not make into an icon =p
BTW heather, this is the same base that I'm using for your doll.. I need to finish her soon, her hair looks great =)
Anyway, any c/c on the doll?
And my bro the dork just came home for the fourth, should be fun having him around to pick on >:)
Jul. 4th, 2003 @ 05:00 pm
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Found this at a korean pixel art site, had to crop the text out but I love it =D
Need to edit the eyes sometime soon to make them brown ^_^
Might play with it more sometime soon also
Jun. 24th, 2003 @ 07:37 pm
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http://www.dqfad.com/
nifty website full of drag queens, go and see Jamie Farr.. so gorgeous
They have like a zillion of drag queens lol
Bush is even on there.. http://www.dqfad.com/gallery.php?mode=stunts&dragid=379
/dies laughing
And this is very urgent..
http://www.petitiononline.com/TRabbit/petition.html
You have to sign it and give the poor trix rabbit a break and let him eat the cereal ^_^
Jun. 7th, 2003 @ 01:51 pm
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Went to Pier 39 today with mom, was pretty fun =)
lj-cut my details about trip, but read it tho!
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May. 25th, 2003 @ 08:48 pm
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Need some help, guys
Cottage or day student when I join csd?
I'm currently a dorm student at my school, and its not so bad but I cant decide for CSD..
Gonna need some positives and negatives of living in cottage so I can decide
and are HS cottages diffrent from middle school? If so, how?
May. 25th, 2003 @ 09:30 am
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loved hair on one doll that I did so much that I had to make it into a icon =)
any suggesions for a quote other than pixel-mad?
May. 23rd, 2003 @ 06:55 pm
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omg hahaha
Chiq got a sticky baggage tag stuck on her butt and ran all around the house at lightspeed then she hid behind a curtain until mom and I found her and removed the tag from her butt
poor kitty.. but it's so funny in a weird way
and I hate my computer =(
it crashes a LOT and I keep losing my work =(
May. 23rd, 2003 @ 06:29 pm
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I'm addicted to pixels now ^_^
Anyway, I'm going to be touring CSD for sure on Tuesday =)
5 day weekend.. mmm
(some staff devolpment day, memorial day, and tour CSD on Tues =D)
One of the nifty stuff about being at a year-round school is lots of long weekends =)
and I should be back at CSD in late Jan, just need to get english credits so I dont have to do 9th again (if you're reading this, CSD admin.. SOBs!) CSD recently raised the required nbr for english credits to 20 and I only have like 12 atm so I have to take a junior college english class /scream
I wish I did badly on the junior college english placement test so I could be in the deaf english class, but I qualifed for a college-level english class =(
english is ebil
gotta go now and help mom prepare for some meeting that she's holding
Can't wait to see you guys =D
May. 23rd, 2003 @ 12:23 pm
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can't sleep and need to finish a final project before tues /sigh
I need to make klinger icons and do some shoutouts soon
Just watched most of Matrix on TiVo (it was edited so I hafta rent the video to see all of it tho) and I really want to see Matrix 2 now.. Maybe I'll go to the IMAX and watch the nifty effects
May. 11th, 2003 @ 02:15 am
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quiz results and some junk ^_^
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May. 10th, 2003 @ 08:26 pm
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I mistyped the url to LJ and it took me to a digusting porn site with a zillion of popups.. I hate sites like that which has the almost same url as a common site /sigh
and here's the link if you're into gross porn and like popups
http://www.livejoural.com
/grumble
May. 10th, 2003 @ 05:05 pm
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aah, school has its iron grip on me /sigh
but been doing pretty well so far, had star tests this week (yuck)
Made a new icon, decided that I didn't like my background and removed it. I think I rather like the new icon =p
and I'm going to try to update my lj more, mmkay
May. 10th, 2003 @ 04:41 pm
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set up friends groups =)
nifty
and go see my background now
Mar. 1st, 2003 @ 05:43 pm
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it seems like I have two people who put me on their friends list that I dont even know.. I feel loved =p
and if you want my icons, I'll be starting an icon journal soon btw
now to sleep
Mar. 1st, 2003 @ 03:58 am
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